Wednesday, September 4, 2019

On Being Left Out


Jer. 2:4-13

Luke 14:1, 7-14



There was a wonderful scene in an old Big Bang episode ( episode 20, season 8, “The fortification implementation") that went like this:

Sheldon: Do you think there comes a point in life when it stops feeling bad to be left out of things?

Amy: Probably not. It’s an evolutionary advantage to be included in group activities.

Sheldon: You know what? I used to be a fan of evolution, but I’ve since evolved, and now I think it’s dumb.

Amy: Being left out is a terrible feeling. No one understands that better than I do.

Sheldon: Hey, look at that. Even in your example, you’re all by yourself.

Amy: When there was a lice epidemic at my school, everybody got it except me. I tried to fool everyone by sprinkling sugar in my hair, but I just got attacked by bees.

Sheldon: I can just picture them all right now at Feynman’s house, probably discussing Schrodinger and at the same time, not discussing Schrodinger. See? They’re missing out on hilarious jokes like that.

Amy: And at the same time, not.

Sheldon: It reminds me of when my stupid brother and sister would build forts in the living room and wouldn’t let me in. I hated that so much.

Amy: You know, there’s nothing I can do about getting you invited to the symposium, but if you wanted, we could build a fort.

Sheldon: Isn’t that a little juvenile?

Amy: More juvenile than this?

Sheldon: I’ll get the blankets. You Google how to have childlike fun.



       I love what Amy says in this scene, because I don’t think it does matter how old we get.  Being left out feels bad.  And while we consider it childish to feel that way, I don’t actually think it is.  I think it’s very human.  I think that all of us can probably recall a time when we felt left out. Probably many of us can recall a recent time when we felt that way.  Maybe it was friends getting together when we were not invited.  Maybe it was a party we were not invited to.  Maybe there was a group that met once, or even regularly that we were never invited to join.  Maybe there was a time when you were invited but somehow felt like a third wheel.  Maybe there was someone you really valued who had a close inner circle that you just couldn’t seem to break into.  Whatever the situation, I think there are times for all of us that we have felt or do feel left out.  And it never feels good.  No matter how old we get, no matter how much wisdom we gain through our lives, no matter what we tell ourselves: “They’ve been friends much longer,” “Why would I want to be friends with someone who doesn’t want to be friends with me?”  “You can’t please all the people all the time,”… it still hurts when we feel unloved, uncared for, unimportant, and unvalued.

But as bad as it feels, for all of us, to be left out, I think we also like the times when we can be with our own small groups, which means we are also, probably all of us, at times, guilty of leaving others out.  It doesn’t matter that we know how it feels to be on the receiving end of this.  We still do it in a variety of settings.  We justify this in all kinds of ways.  “Well, isn’t it right and important to have time with friends?”  “Don’t we all need safe places and people that we deeply connect with that we spend time with?”  “I’m not going to be my best in the world if I don’t have the love and support of my inner community.” 

All of these reasons sound good.  They all make sense.  We, as humans, do need support from one another, we do need relationships that heal us and nurture us.  We need to have friends or family that we are especially close to.  And yet, we come to today’s scripture reading, “When you give a luncheon or dinner, do not invite your friends, your brothers or sisters, your relatives, or your rich neighbors; if you do, they may invite you back and so you will be repaid.  But when you give a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed.  Although they cannot repay you, you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.”

What Jesus is actually confronting here is a practice of posturing for position.  The first part of the passage I read you today is connected to the second part: he challenging both the vying for important seats at a hosts table and the inviting of only certain guests because both were a way of claiming one’s status, claiming one’s position.  We know there are people who still do this.  There are still people striving hard to climb the social ladder who work to connect with and associate only with those of a “higher” class or social standing than themselves.  They don’t want to be seen with their old associates for fear of being categorized with them.  The “nouveau riche” work hard, often, to be accepted by “old money” into that clan of upper class, but it is other people as well.  Still, I don’t believe this tends to be a middle class issue as much.  Still, while we don’t focus on social standing in the same way, and I don’t think anyone here is guilty of inviting those they see as “above themselves” for the purpose of raising their social position, none the less, we still are challenged by this passage to avoid isolating or secluding ourselves within our own groups, economically, socially, and in terms of our own friend groups.  We are called to expand our group of influence and association beyond those with whom we are the most comfortable, who keep us easy and who can just be supports and serve us as we serve them.  We are called to associate more with those with whom the relationship will be more one-sided: we will be doing more of the giving and caring, we will be offering what cannot be returned.  We are called to not only care for them at a distance, but to invite them in: to dine with them, to have them at our parties and our gatherings.  And none of us are comfortable with this.  We just aren’t.  We want those around us, especially those we invite into our homes, to have something in common with us, to be people we like.  And we want to be happy and comfortable in our social settings.

When my children were little I joined a local mothers group which divided us into playgroups with women who had babies the same age.  I loved my little playgroup.  When Jonah was born, I tried to join another one that had new babies the same age as his.  One I attended kicked me out after the first time because, “well, all the rest of us are first time mothers.  That’s different!”  Obviously, this still smarts a little.  I tend to remember, as most of us no-doubt do,  the times of being left out more than the times of leaving out, and yet I know I am equally guilty of the latter.

While in Cleveland I was part of a wonderful Lectionary group.  We were 12 pastors, all tending to be very like-minded, who gathered on a weekly basis to discuss the scripture readings for the following week, to plan our sermons.  We also ate together, prayed together, supported one another through whatever was going on in each of our lives.  I was and am deeply grateful for that group.  They saw me through very hard times and were really a “house church” in the truest sense of the word in terms of the support, the community building, the fellowship and friendship.  But joining this group was by invitation only.  I understood why it was set up that way: again, we were a safe place in large part because we were like-minded in our reading of scripture and our understanding of God’s call for our lives.  At the same time, I struggled with this aspect of the group.  I mean we were pastors, after all – called to follow scriptures like this one that encourage much greater openness and inclusion.  If others had come, well, yes, the group would have changed.  But perhaps it would have become something equally good, though different.  Perhaps we would have had more learning and more growth by being with people of a different mind-set, a different leaning.  Perhaps it would have become a place where we practiced loving those who are different from ourselves.  Again, it would have meant change.  And change is uncomfortable.  But that is what Jesus calls us to do: to expand, to include, and to stop putting up walls that decide who is in and who is out, even at the basic level of who we invite to dinner and who we don’t. 

It’s not just that we want to be comfortable and attractive in our homes and with our friends, we do this in subtle and not so subtle ways even in our churches.  In one of the congregations I served, one of our less “acceptable” members wanted to be a greeter.  She had problems with cleanliness, not bathing often enough she smelled a bit, her hair looked unkept.  She also had problems socially – always standing a little too close, sharing too much, laughing too loud, saying inappropriate things.  But she was very friendly, very outgoing, she really cared about others, and she really wanted to be a greeter.  Several people in my church were afraid that would make us unattractive.  They worried that it would send the wrong message to have someone like that in such a position; that if we allowed this young woman to be a greeter, that the “right people” might not come or want to join the church. While I understood that thinking, I believe this passage attacks that pretty directly.  The “right people” to have in one’s church are people exactly like her: those others don’t want to include, those who don’t “fit in”, those we are called most deeply and fully to welcome, accept, and love.

We exclude in subtle ways too.  We talk over people who talk too much.  We don’t look at people we don’t like or want around us.  We shout down those who say things that make us uneasy.  We are all guilty in one way or another.

In the kingdom of God, the outcasts are equal, or superiors because after all, “the first shall be last,” to those who are more comfortable, who have more money, who succeed more easily, who are socially adept.  Those people who are “not like us” and who make us uneasy sit at the table with us and they eat with us.  Our enemies are the very people we are expected to spend our time with, and the ones we look down on are those we will be feeding.  But we are called to begin this now, in this place, this day.

I look at my Aislynn.  She has not yet learned to exclude in this way.  She has a solid friend group at school, but she also has a person in that friend group who is always inviting new people to come and eat lunch with them, to join them.  This particular group of friends seems to delight in welcoming, in including, those who might otherwise be lost at school.  The kids invited seem mostly to be youth who were not part of this school district or school system before: new kids who are searching for their place.  But occasionally they invite someone in who is just awkward and struggles to find acceptance elsewhere.  This wonderful group of friends welcomes these new kids with open arms, with excitement.  They have not learned to exclude.  And in their actions I learn how to be better myself.

I came across a poem I would like to share with you:

(Tattoos of the Heart: p 17)

With That Moon Language

Admit something:

Everyone you see, you say to them,

 “Love me”. 

Of course you do not do this out loud:

Otherwise,

Someone would call the cops. 

Still though, think about this,

This great pull in us to connect. 

Why not become the one

Who lives with a full moon in each eye

That is always saying

With that sweet moon

Language

What every other eye in this world

Is dying to

Hear. 

- Hafez



               My challenge for all of us this week is to look more closely at the ways in which we leave others out.  And to take the challenge to invite others to join.  When you next have a gathering, invite one or two people you don’t normally invite.  When you go out to lunch next time, think of including someone you wouldn’t normally include.  When you have a party, try to invite someone you know would like to be invited that you really aren’t as comfortable with.  Think about those who might be feeling left out.  See if there is anyone who is needing a friend and choose to seek them out.  Take the chance of reaching out to someone different.  Draw your circles of inclusion in all things a little wider.  And see what gifts come back to you.  Amen.

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