Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Early morning "listening"

I'm really a morning person, if left to my own devices.  When I'm involved with someone (when I was married or when I'm dating someone) that schedule gets pushed to the back.  For one thing, I seem to pick night owls.  But for another, it is hard to find one-on-one time before kids are in bed, which means staying up.  But when I am left on my own, I tend to go to bed at the same time as the kids - 9 or 9:30, read for maybe 30 minutes and then crash.  That means on the other end, I often wake up at 5 or 5:30, long before there is any movement from the children.  I like going to bed at the same time as the kids.  There is often a little more conversation and cuddle time, especially if one crawls into my room to sleep but even talking between the walls of our rooms.  And I find I love those quiet morning moments.  I look out the window and watch the birds and other wildlife.  I notice the plants and trees.  I think, I pray.  Sometimes I eat, sometimes I read.  But mostly it is time between me and my Creator to just BE.  No matter what else is going on, that quiet time centers me, grounds me, reminds me of the big picture.  Before the hustle and bustle of the day, it helps me to slow down and take my time.  Before being inundated with news and media and the traumas of the world, it helps me to just see the beauty out my window and in whatever corner of the world I am currently sitting.  This time helps me to be peaceful and to put that peace into my heart to strengthen me for more chaotic moments.  It reminds me to be grateful for each breath and for each day as it comes.  No doubt the day will hold challenges.  But I am fortified to meet them through this morning routine of peace and quiet.  It is one of life's big gifts.  And I am grateful.